So long I have been searching for "the key" to my life; that thing which, if I but grasp hold of, will make me live like I'm supposed to, be the Christian I should be. Some verse, some doctrine, some phrase, which if I keep remembering it, will keep me from that depressed, joyless, critical spirit that I keep falling into.
They have all been good things: remembering that I am accepted by God; that Christ's record is applied to my account; that I don't have to be perfect for God to love me - etc. Anything that deals with my ongoing "sin problem" as a Christian.
But God is showing me that the "key" is Jesus. Himself. He is the cause of my acceptance, my forgiveness, etc. I knew that, but still somehow felt of the gospel, "Yes, I know, Jesus died for me; now let's get on with being the Christian I'm supposed to be."
The longing within, when seeing Christians who were so "real", of "how can I be like them?" - but now I see: I don't need primarily to be like them - but to have Jesus! He is the key to my attitude, my life, my joy, my righteousness. If I cling to Him - then it will be enough.
The gospel: that Jesus became man and died for my sins to take away God's wrath toward me - this is all I need.
And any doctrine has to lead back to Jesus to avoid being off-balanced.
Any focus of my life, if it does not have Jesus as its main thing, will make something else my idol. I can't have the passion of my life be homeschooling, or saving money, or adoption by God, or eating in a healthy way - if it does not bring the focus back to Jesus. I can homeschool for Jesus, but if I forget Him in my homeschooling, it consumes me. I can save money in order to spend it for Jesus' cause, but not for its own sake, or money becomes my idol. I can eat healthy for Jesus, but not for its own sake, or health becomes my idol. I can think about being a child of God, but if I do it divorced from the Savior who redeemed me, I fall into the same traps as before, basing my relationship with God on my perception of how I have been doing as a Christian lately.
Jesus is the Main Thing. If you have anything else, fine - but you must have Jesus. If you teach your children anything else, that's great - but you must teach them Jesus. In everything. All the time. Every day.
If you have only one life doctrine, one belief you live by: it must be, the gospel. Jesus, who died to take away my sins.
Jesus must be everything to me - or I will have nothing.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Saturday, October 17, 2009
kids update - October 2009
Boy, I hadn't realized it had been so long since I posted anything!
Jeff is finally walking! And giving up crawling. He just started several weeks ago, and has taken off. He looks so much taller standing up.
Emily is reading. She got through the whole "Teach your child to read in 100 easy lessons" book, and we try to practice some reading at least a few days a week.
Katherine is kindergarten age. We are homeschooling (at least, trying to!). We have the help of our "Enrichment" classes, which is a sort of homeschool co-op with people from our church. Enrichment meets one morning a week, and Katherine gets to have a literature/history/crafts class, along with a science class. I get to teach her science (and thereby avoid paying for her classes!). So Grandma takes the younger two kids while I teach 9 kindergartners about the Human Body (and get groceries if there is time before class).
We usually get some math and some reading done 3-4 days a week with both girls. History right now consists of Katherine's literature class (which focuses on the colonial period in America) and our reading of the Little House on the Prairie books, which she loves.
I'm starting to learn that the key to my life, my attitude, my joy, my "success" in a day - is Jesus. That I need to be "looking to Jesus" in everything... would that I did it all the time!
And I am starting to learn that life does not have to be perfect
David's job is up in the air, since his current boss can't keep him past the end of the year. We are praying that one of the other departments in his company can take him on instead.
We had a lovely week at the beach in October. The Lord gave us some nice weather, and time with friends and family.
ferry ride on the way to the beach
petting area at NC Aquarium at Fort Fisher
big tortoises at "Alligator Adventure" in Myrtle Beach
alligator sculpture - fun to play on
as always, pictures on the dock near our favorite seafood restaurant in Calabash, NC ("Dockside")
feeding seagulls
Jeff is finally walking! And giving up crawling. He just started several weeks ago, and has taken off. He looks so much taller standing up.
Emily is reading. She got through the whole "Teach your child to read in 100 easy lessons" book, and we try to practice some reading at least a few days a week.
Katherine is kindergarten age. We are homeschooling (at least, trying to!). We have the help of our "Enrichment" classes, which is a sort of homeschool co-op with people from our church. Enrichment meets one morning a week, and Katherine gets to have a literature/history/crafts class, along with a science class. I get to teach her science (and thereby avoid paying for her classes!). So Grandma takes the younger two kids while I teach 9 kindergartners about the Human Body (and get groceries if there is time before class).
We usually get some math and some reading done 3-4 days a week with both girls. History right now consists of Katherine's literature class (which focuses on the colonial period in America) and our reading of the Little House on the Prairie books, which she loves.
I'm starting to learn that the key to my life, my attitude, my joy, my "success" in a day - is Jesus. That I need to be "looking to Jesus" in everything... would that I did it all the time!
And I am starting to learn that life does not have to be perfect
David's job is up in the air, since his current boss can't keep him past the end of the year. We are praying that one of the other departments in his company can take him on instead.
We had a lovely week at the beach in October. The Lord gave us some nice weather, and time with friends and family.
ferry ride on the way to the beach
petting area at NC Aquarium at Fort Fisher
big tortoises at "Alligator Adventure" in Myrtle Beach
alligator sculpture - fun to play on
as always, pictures on the dock near our favorite seafood restaurant in Calabash, NC ("Dockside")
feeding seagulls
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